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【MXSPS-285】THE限界キメセク~媚薬×催眠×飲酒~

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【MXSPS-285】THE限界キメセク~媚薬×催眠×飲酒~ �


'Iamveryhappy,Jane;andwhenyouhearthatIamdead,youmustbesureandnotgrieve:thereisnothingtogrieveabout.Weallmustdieoneday,andtheillnesswhichisremovingmeisnotpainful;itisgentleandgradual:mymindisatrest.Ileavenoonetoregretmemuch:Ihaveonlyafather;andheislatelymarried,andwillnotmissme.Bydyingyoung,Ishallescapegreatsufferings.Ihadnotqualitiesortalentstomakemywayverywellintheworld:Ishouldhavebeencontinuallyatfault.'

TheyconversedofthingsIhadneverheardof;ofnationsandtimespast;ofcountriesfaraway;ofsecretsofnaturediscoveredorguessedat:theyspokeofbooks:howmanytheyhadread!Whatstoresofknowledgetheypossessed!ThentheyseemedsofamiliarwithFrenchnamesandFrenchauthors:butmyamazementreacheditsclimaxwhenMissTempleaskedHelenifshesometimessnatchedamomenttorecalltheLatinherfatherhadtaughther,andtakingabookfromashelf,badeherreadandconstrueapageofVirgil;andHelenobeyed,myorganofvenerationexpandingateverysoundingline.Shehadscarcelyfinishederethebellannouncedbedtime!nodelaycouldbeadmitted;MissTempleembracedusboth,saying,asshedrewustoherheart-

'Youaresure,then,Helen,thatthereissuchaplaceasheaven,andthatoursoulscangettoitwhenwedie?'

Iwenttomywindow,openedit,andlookedout.Therewerethetwowingsofthebuilding;therewasthegarden;thereweretheskirtsofLowood;therewasthehillyhorizon.Myeyepassedallotherobjectstorestonthosemostremote,thebluepeaks;itwasthoseIlongedtosurmount;allwithintheirboundaryofrockandheathseemedprison-ground,exilelimits.Itracedthewhiteroadwindingroundthebaseofonemountain,andvanishinginagorgebetweentwo;howIlongedtofollowitfarther!IrecalledthetimewhenIhadtravelledthatveryroadinacoach;Iremembereddescendingthathillattwilight;anageseemedtohaveelapsedsincethedaywhichbroughtmefirsttoLowood,andIhadneverquitteditsince.Myvacationshadallbeenspentatschool:Mrs.ReedhadneversentformetoGateshead;neithershenoranyofherfamilyhadeverbeentovisitme.Ihadhadnocommunicationbyletterormessagewiththeouterworld:school-rules,school-duties,school-habitsandnotions,andvoices,andfaces,andphrases,andcostumes,andpreferences,andantipathies-suchwaswhatIknewofexistence.AndnowIfeltthatitwasnotenough;Itiredoftheroutineofeightyearsinoneafternoon.Idesiredliberty;forlibertyIgasped;forlibertyIutteredaprayer;itseemedscatteredonthewindthenfaintlyblowing.Iabandoneditandframedahumblersupplication;forchange,stimulus:thatpetition,too,seemedsweptoffintovaguespace:'Then,'Icried,halfdesperate,'grantmeatleastanewservitude!'

Thenurseclosedthefrontdoor;Iwentinbythesideentrancewhichledtotheschoolroom:Iwasjustintime;itwasnineo'clock,andMissMillerwascallingthepupilstogotobed.

WhilediseasehadthusbecomeaninhabitantofLowood,anddeathitsfrequentvisitor;whiletherewasgloomandfearwithinitswalls;whileitsroomsandpassagessteamedwithhospitalsmells,thedrugandthepastillestrivingvainlytoovercometheeffluviaofmortality,thatbrightMayshoneuncloudedovertheboldhillsandbeautifulwoodlandoutofdoors.Itsgarden,too,glowedwithflowers:hollyhockshadsprunguptallastrees,lilieshadopened,tulipsandroseswereinbloom;thebordersofthelittlebedsweregaywithpinkthriftandcrimsondoubledaisies;thesweetbriarsgaveout,morningandevening,theirscentofspiceandapples;andthesefragranttreasureswerealluselessformostoftheinmatesofLowood,excepttofurnishnowandthenahandfulofherbsandblossomstoputinacoffin.

'Icametoseeyou,Helen:Iheardyouwereveryill,andIcouldnotsleeptillIhadspokentoyou.'

AgainIquestioned,butthistimeonlyinthought.'Whereisthatregion?Doesitexist?'AndIclaspedmyarmscloseraroundHelen;sheseemeddearertomethanever;IfeltasifIcouldnotlethergo;Ilaywithmyfacehiddenonherneck.Presentlyshesaid,inthesweetesttone-

'Yes;tomylonghome-mylasthome.'


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