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【TMAX-119】メコスジかわいゆい

Source global Wall Street Journal     time 2020-02-19 09:48:18
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【TMAX-119】メコスジかわいゆい �


ThedoctorexaminedConniecarefully,andaskedherallaboutherlife.`Iseeyourphotograph,andSirClifford's,intheillustratedpaperssometimes.Almostnotorieties,aren'tyou?That'showthequietlittlegirlsgrowup,thoughyou'reonlyaquietlittlegirlevennow,inspiteoftheillustratedpapers.No,no!There'snothingorganicallywrong,butitwon'tdo!Itwon'tdo!TellSirCliffordhe'sgottobringyoutotown,ortakeyouabroad,andamuseyou.You'vegottobeamused,gotto!Yourvitalityismuchtoolow;noreserves,noreserves.Thenervesoftheheartabitqueeralready:oh,yes!Nothingbutnerves;I'dputyourightinamonthatCannesorBiarritz.Butitmustn'tgoon,mustn't,Itellyou,orIwon'tbeanswerableforconsequences.You'respendingyourlifewithoutrenewingit.You'vegottobeamused,properly,healthilyamused.You'respendingyourvitalitywithoutmakingany.Can'tgoon,youknow.Depression!Avoiddepression!'

MrsBoltonalsokeptacherishingeyeonConnie,feelingshemustextendtoherherfemaleandprofessionalprotection.Shewasalwaysurgingherladyshiptowalkout,todrivetoUthwaite,tobeintheair.ForConniehadgotintothehabitofsittingstillbythefire,pretendingtoread;ortosewfeebly,andhardlygoingoutatall.

ThelightofbattleglowedinHilda'sface;shewasawoman,softandstillassheseemed,oftheoldamazonsort,notmadetofitwithmen.

`Oh,whenpeoplebegintotalkaboutrealwomen,Igiveup,'saidOlive.

Hildaonlygloweredathimwithoutreplying;reparteewasnotherforte,norConnie's;sosheglowered,andhewasmuchmoreuncomfortablethanifshehadsaidthings.

ThetwosistersatoncecalledonMrsBolton,inanewishhouseinarow,quiteselectforTevershall.Theyfoundarathergood-lookingwomanofforty-odd,inanurse'suniform,withawhitecollarandapron,justmakingherselfteainasmallcrowdedsitting-room.

Itwasaqueermixtureoffeelingsthewomanshowedasshetalked.Shelikedthecolliers,whomshehadnursedforsolong;butshefeltverysuperiortothem.Shefeltalmostupperclass;andatthesametimearesentmentagainsttherulingclasssmoulderedinher.Themasters!Inadisputebetweenmastersandmen,shewasalwaysforthemen.Butwhentherewasnoquestionofcontest,shewaspiningtobesuperior,tobeoneoftheupperclass.Theupperclassesfascinatedher,appealingtoherpeculiarEnglishpassionforsuperiority.ShewasthrilledtocometoWragby;thrilledtotalktoLadyChatterley,myword,differentfromthecommoncolliers'wives!Shesaidsoinsomanywords.YetonecouldseeagrudgeagainsttheChatterleyspeepoutinher;thegrudgeagainstthemasters.

TedBoltonwastwenty-eightwhenliewaskilledinanexplosiondownth'pit.Thebuttyinfrontshoutedtothemalltoliedownquick,therewerefourofthem.Andtheyalllaydownintime,onlyTed,anditkilledhim.Thenattheinquiry,onthemasters'sidetheysaidTedhadbeenfrightened,andtryingtorunaway,andnotobeyingorders,soitwaslikehisfaultreally.Sothecompensationwasonlythreehundredpounds,andtheymadeoutasifitwasmoreofagiftthanlegalcompensation,becauseitwasreallytheman'sownfault.Andtheywouldn'tletherhavethemoneydown;shewantedtohavealittleshop.Buttheysaidshe'dnodoubtsquanderit,perhapsindrink!Soshehadtodrawitthirtyshillingsaweek.Yes,shehadtogoeveryMondaymorningdowntotheoffices,andstandthereacoupleofhourswaitingherturn;yes,foralmostfouryearsshewenteveryMonday.Andwhatcouldshedowithtwolittlechildrenonherhands?ButTed'smotherwasverygoodtoher.Whenthebabycouldtoddleshe'dkeepboththechildrenfortheday,whileshe,IvyBolton,wenttoSheffield,andattendedclassesinambulance,andthenthefourthyearsheeventookanursingcourseandgotqualified.Shewasdeterminedtobeindependentandkeepherchildren.SoshewasassistantatUthwaitehospital,justalittleplace,forawhile.ButwhentheCompany,theTevershallCollieryCompany,reallySirGeoffrey,sawthatshecouldgetonbyherself,theywereverygoodtoher,gavehertheparishnursing,andstoodbyher,shewouldsaythatforthem.Andshe'ddoneiteversince,tillnowitwasgettingabitmuchforher;sheneededsomethingabitlighter,therewassuchalotoftraipsingaroundifyouwereadistrictnurse.

Then,whenallthepeoplewent,itwasnobetter.Shecontinuedploddingon,butexasperationandirritationhadgotholdofherlowerbody,shecouldn'tescape.Thedaysseemedtogrindby,withcuriouspainfulness,yetnothinghappened.Onlyshewasgettingthinner;eventhehousekeepernoticedit,andaskedheraboutherselfEvenTommyDukesinsistedshewasnotwell,thoughshesaidshewasallright.Onlyshebegantobeafraidoftheghastlywhitetombstones,thatpeculiarloathsomewhitenessofCarraramarble,detestableasfalseteeth,whichstuckuponthehillside,underTevershallchurch,andwhichshesawwithsuchgrimpainfulnessfromthepark.Thebristlingofthehideousfalseteethoftombstonesonthehillaffectedherwithagrislykindofhorror.Shefeltthetimenotfaroffwhenshewouldbeburiedthere,addedtotheghastlyhostunderthetombstonesandthemonuments,inthesefilthyMidlands.


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